Being the Puppet Master
Was it good or bad? Maybe just Better. A necessity when I was married to Steve. He "went tharn" when confronted with choices, decisions, changes. ("Tharn", "Watership Down", 'like a deer in the headlights') Now we just call it Being the Matriarch. That's what a life of being the puppet master made me into. I do not Choose It any more if I ever did. But especially now, in my old age. I am glad to still have the ability to run the show but I would gladly hand the reins over for my Golden Years. I constantly look for a way out of this job but no one can or even wants to take over. I would have handed it all to Jeremy like he wanted me to if he had been even a little bit capable. Jess can pretty much run the house but has no clue really how to keep up with the bills or deal with collectors or anyone. Jami is still lost in a world of methamphetamine and the characters associated with that. Oh no. No. No. Jean...